I want to tell you so many things but I'm afraid afraid of what you'll do afraid of what you'll say afraid that my feelings so fragile will shatter and fade afraid of what will happen if I were to tell you how I truely felt I try so hard but I am so confused not knowing what I feel or if it is for real not sure what to say so nervous not even sure if it is real it changes day to day and the frustrations never seem to go away. Always philosophic

Your gone, but not really It never really feels as though its actually true. The heart ache and tears are a day to day battle. They fade and return with the wonderful memory of you. Your gone, but not really memories of things you've said or things you've done. All will be remembered all is not lost and memories remain Your gone, but not really I will love you always always and forever. Always Philosophic